I was in meditation walking into my longing for a closer relationship with god. Suddenly, the question dawned “how can you think of god being over there?” “How can you even feel any longing for that energy, when there is nothing that isn’t god?” The thought slapped me across the face with cold realization.
The only way there can be a god I can long for, a god I imagine to be “over there,” is for me to be creating the whole thing; the longing and the idea that god is a separate thing.
I have understood in an intellectual way we create ourselves to be separate. I have even had experiences where the totality and what I see as my “self” merge into one seamless continuum. But today the realization dropped into my gut. I am creating the moment where god isn’t already everything. I am creating the idea that god isn’t everywhere… The floor of understanding dropped out from under me and I suddenly just was. “God isn’t Elvis, I thought. God cannot leave the building… God is the building, Elvis and everything else; including you and me…
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